Dear Baby,
Today I found out I'm pregnant with you. I held my breath while I waited for that second pink line to appear. After ten months of disappointment, this month was finally the month! It only took about thirty seconds and that faint line appeared right before my eyes. I started smiling and then got teary-eyed and immediately bowed my head and thanked our Heavenly Father for this blessing. On the first Sunday of this month, your dad and I fasted that Heavenly Father would bless us with another child if it be His will. In my personal prayers, I asked Him if our family was complete and felt very strongly that it was not...that another child would join us. I also believe the time wasn't right before but is now. Joshua will be 2.5 when you are born and Oliver will be just about to turn five years old, six months away from Kindergarten. I feel this is the time you are to join our family.
Oliver has been asking me for a long time (at least a year) for a sister. He is relentless. I told him we should pray to ask Heavenly Father for a sister and maybe He would send one to us. So we did. But then Oliver told me he doesn't want a baby sister but a big sister, like his friends have. I told him we all start out as babies and then grow older. This seemed to be a realization for him. He still wants a sister, though. But, if you are a boy, I think he will be just fine with that. He is a good big brother to Joshua and will be a good big brother to you, too.
I've suspected for a couple of weeks that I was pregnant but was afraid to hope. Last month I really thought I was pregnant, too, but wasn't. My biggest clue this month was the extreme exhaustion. I can barely function, I'm so tired. I was to the point where I resolved if I wasn't pregnant, I would go get blood work done because I must have a deficiency. But that second pink line today explained the tiredness quite well. :) I just hope I can keep up with two active boys while experiencing this exhaustion.
I haven't told anyone I'm pregnant yet. It's really difficult because I'm visiting Utah, staying at my mom's house and I saw my sister and grandparents today. We all went out to dinner. I would have loved to share the news, at least with my mom and sister, but I really want to tell your dad first. He's at Scout Camp until tomorrow (with no phone reception), so I'm going to wait. But in the meantime, it's fun writing a letter you will someday read in the future.
I look forward to meeting you, little one.
Love, Mom
